“Where I’ve Been, What I’ve Learned, and Why I’m Returning Now”
For a long while, I lived through great successes and quiet failures, through days of stillness and moments of elation that no words can hold. And now, standing in the winter of my life, when I look back at the weaving of ups and downs, I no longer believe that I was ever in control — nor that things happened to me.
Things happened for me.
I know now that when I have the courage to trust the universe, soften, open, become vulnerable, and say a wholehearted YES to the unknown… synchronicity rises like mist from the ground. Guidance arrives in whispers. Life moves through me rather than me setting plans for achievements that may or may not come.
But alignment does not come through force or will.
It comes through surrender.
Through vulnerability.
Through letting the inner dams open and releasing judgments we didn’t know we were holding.
My Journey in Movement & Awareness
I came from movement — sports and science physiology, anatomy, kinesiology.
I learned everything about being human through theory outside of me: techniques, atlases, cadavers.
We studied the body the way you study a machine.
It never occurred to me to go inside —
to feel the alignment of my spine,
to sense my breath,
to listen to how my heart is supported.
That all changed when I met Bonnie Bainbridge Cohen and Body-Mind Centering®.
Suddenly experience mattered.
The “how” of touching, moving, looking, thinking, resisting… and yielding.
BMC left me wordless.
It opened a world where:
“We think more than we can say,
we feel more than we can think,
we live more than we can feel.”
— Eugene Gendlin
I spent decades searching for language to express that mystery — through traditions, ceremonies, practices — only to discover that no words can fully capture the wonder and intimacy of being alive.
Body, mind, spirit, soul… universe —
none can be separated.
They interweave.
As Thich Nhat Hanh says, they inter-are.
You and I — we are both made of this same mystery.
We both carry rivers inside.
We both long to feel the world directly again.
So I am returning — here, to my work, to this space — to share what I’ve learned about wholeness, embodiment, and the profound intelligence that lives inside each of us.
If you are feeling the pull to reconnect with your own depth…
stay with me.
